​“Damn! I really really miss him. Damn! F@$^! #%@$!(#&%@#%!!”. Segala umpatan lainnya mengikuti bersama sesak hampa yang tidak tertahankan, dan kenangan yang menusuk di depan mata. Menghela nafas, hampir putus asa. “Ngapain sih gw putus segala?!. Pleeeease remind me again”
“You want a future and he cannot give that”, ungkapnya lempeng.
“Hm.. Ya true.” Future? Future apaan? Hidup gak punya struktur kok membutuhkan masa depan. I really miss him.  “Okay.. Still not working. Give me another reason.”                       
 “He deceived you all this time, feeding dreams he apparently won't do. He just want to stay this way, his comfort zone, while you want more. ”
“Lied. True. Broken promises. True.”. Jeda. Menghela dalam rasionalisasi. “Still not working. Hit me again.”
“You want to put an end to their pain.”                       
-hening-
“You cannot accept the reality that you will be hurting someone else forever!” 
“Yup. Binggo!”
“Did I do good?”
“Yeah. That does it. Hope it last... for a bit.”
 (percakapan dini hari, bulan Juni)